I shiver
I shiver,
while the burning sun is up,
Motivation diminished,
Dopamine dropped,
Like a grass letting people walk over,
Regrets all over my body,
I flutter,
Recollecting the great ideas that never took birth,
Shadows of sorrow covering all around,
Terrified that I’m not worthy,
I shiver,
Trying to replace the broken pieces,
Struggling to focus,
Haunted by the mad universe,
I shiver,
Remembering all the lies I told myself,
Remembering the empty days,
Reflecting,
Freaking,
Denying,
I shiver,
Smoking out my insecurities,
One after another,
Smoking out,
In the gloomy light-filled with smoke,
Dreaming of the ideas I had,
Knowing that they never took shape,
They can’t take shape anymore,
I shiver,
Waiting for the day to pass by,
I shiver again,
While the burning sun is up.