I shiver

I shiver,

while the burning sun is up,

Motivation diminished,

Dopamine dropped,

Like a grass letting people walk over,

Regrets all over my body,

I flutter,

Recollecting the great ideas that never took birth,

Shadows of sorrow covering all around,

Terrified that I’m not worthy,

I shiver,

Trying to replace the broken pieces,

Struggling to focus,

Haunted by the mad universe,

I shiver,

Remembering all the lies I told myself,

Remembering the empty days,

Reflecting,

Freaking,

Denying,

I shiver,

Smoking out my insecurities,

One after another,

Smoking out,

In the gloomy light-filled with smoke,

Dreaming of the ideas I had,

Knowing that they never took shape,
They can’t take shape anymore,

I shiver,

Waiting for the day to pass by,

I shiver again,

While the burning sun is up.